Well, where do I start? How about the fact that I feel all alone now? I know I have friends but they just seem so distant now. MB doesn't even act the same around me. I'm sure HD hates me now and I don't blame her. I don't even know who to believe anymore. Its so ridiculous. RA hates me as well. I'm seeing a new side of him now. Trying on dresses didn't help at all either. I am going to run and eat only fruits and vegetable for a week, maybe even longer than that. Gah, I don't even know how to express the way I feel right now. I had everything and then I lost it. I have no one to talk to now. I don't want to make things worse with MB, RA doesn't want to talk to me or I'm afraid to talk to him, I don't want my mom to worry, and my dad is always drunk. I almost lost it this weekend. He was getting on my last nerve!! I can't even be happy that I finally got a job. I mean yes I'm getting paid but it is working at a vet clinic in their kennels. At least I well get to work with the dogs, they won't have any bad feelings toward me.
I feel so worthless right now.
"one good thing about music-when it hits-you feel no pain"
"sometimes all you can do is laugh to keep yourself from crying"
"is anybody out there? I feel like I'm talking to myself, No one seems to know my struggles and everything I come from. can anybody hear me?"
"there is always some pain behind every smile and a tear behind every I'm ok"
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