Well, it's been an interesting past couple weeks. I have had good and bad days both shadowed with it's opposite.London was amazing but shadowed with ED. Sunday after London was great but full of guilt. Monday was happy and sad. Tuesday wasn't the best but good at the same time.
I have lost someone very important to me but at the same time I know it's for the best and it bothers me not to talk to him. I know it kills him to know that I still love MB. But at the same time I like RA. But he is always telling me to just go be with MB and maybe now I will. I kinda feel like that's what he wants me to do and that he just wants to get rid of me. But at the same time I know he doesn't want that.
MB is also confusing as well but I'm not going to get into that. I'm just so grateful for him sometimes. He really tries to help with ED and he is the closest to understanding it as well.
I am so excited for the summer and this year to end!! Maybe my life is finally turning around.
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