Mixed Emotions

I am such a mess right now. I'm all around the place with emotions. One minute I'm happy the next I'm calm the next I'm sad. Its so un-nerving.
Like, I'm happy because its summer and no more school, but then I start thinking about me and I get all the feelings that come with my weight issue, then I'm calm because I know its all gonna be ok, then I'm sad because he is mad at me, then I'm tired for no flipping reason, then depressed because its summer and that means shorts and a bathing suit.
Some people I just can't understand, at all. Enough said, moving on.
These flipping cicadas are driving me nuts!!! They need to shut up! I mean, what good do they do, all they do is make noise and fly around and be gross.
I am such a fatty!!!! I had a big bowl of cereal this morning, then later i had a bunch of double stuff oreos, then later I had some chips (natural, whole grain kind), then I had some yogurt which I could barely finish because I drank to much water. Hopefully I won't eat anything else today. It would help if I could stay out of the house, cause I get bored and I eat.
How come, everytime I think of him I smile? or cry, or frown, or giggle, or sigh? I didn't think one person could have such a big affect on someone.
Ok I kinda like work now. Yes it may get hot and I may get frustrated but I like it, the people and the dogs. Days like today make me wish that I worked all day or more. It keeps my mind off things and gives me exercise.
Here is a link to some pics. I love love love flowers and nature pictures!!!! I can just look at these when I'm down and they will help a little. I'll add more pics later.
Beautiful
Ok I'm running out of time so I better go.
RA if you're reading this, I LOVE YOU!!! haha I know, I'm creepy, sorry.