Hard

Well this is extremely hard. Going through a day is like climbing a mountain. I'm trying so hard to stay strong for him. It would also help if I could just cry and let it all out.I feel such a mixture of things right now. I want to just give up but at the same time I want to fight it. Now my mom is starting to worry about me, which isn't good because she would just make it worse. It's like I have a two track mind, one side is ED and the other is RA. Those are the things I'm always thinking about.
I just can't wait till graduation, then that's one less thing I have to worry about. I can leave that stupid he'll hole and never come back. Hopefully the pain will go away completely then.
Well I'm back to the ED topic.......again. Sorry. I just wish things could stay good. They get good then go bad again and it's not just slightly, it's major. No one will ever understand. I'll just keep it to myself from now on.
Someone please help my dad!!!
I'm tired of being alone, I just like to have someone I really care about right next to me. It helps me to know that I am wanted by someone or that I can actually do something right. And for a while I forget everything.