Well

I don't really know what I have to say, just kinda got on here. I should be working on college stuff, I still have a good bit of reading to do. I have also accomplished a lot today as well. I read about 70 pages of So Red The Rose, I have read my stuff for writing class and done my response on Moodle for Oral History. All I have left are about 15 pages in Living Folklore and a chapter in my history txtbook. It doesn't sound like a lot but it really is. What sucks is that I'm gonna get all this done then have more slammed on me tomorrow again. At the same time I have learned a lot already and I have enjoyed some of the reading but it leaves no time for other stuff. What's weird is that I am really tired but I have done nothing all day but sit on my fat ass and read. I swear I have got to find a way to workout everyday and stop being lazy.
I don't even know how to explain how I feel right now, there is so much going through my head, and I'm not sure if it is even stress that I am feeling. Like I said, I don't know how to explain how I'm feeling.
I'm tired, I miss his voice, depressed kinda, I miss all the dogs back home, sad, I'm scared, I miss him like crazy, I'm mad at myself, I miss 93 pounds, I miss having control, I feel numb almost, I wanta cry, I feel worthless, I feel lazy, I feel upset for some reason,I miss smiling all the time, and most of............all I miss being in his arms being with him every second that I could.
Whats even worse is that I am thinking about finding another therapist here at Rhodes or somewhere around here. I know, its horrible but I feel that bad now. RA, its not like you don't help at all, you do A LOT!!!! Honestly if it weren't for you I would probably be in big trouble right now. Its just, I don't know. I guess I'll give it a few days and if I still feel like this I will do something about it.
I feel like tomorrow is going to be a mess and I just hope I can handle it. Its just, the "bad thoughts" are coming back. I'm doing everything in my power to keep them away though.
As for Kate, my roommate, sometimes I love her and sometimes I hate her. She talks a lot and she is very organized. She stays up late, which is ok with me most of the time except for when she freaking talks to me till 12am and takes a long shower. She is good to go shopping with and workout with and stuff like that, its just when she talks forever.
Ah Bobo, what to say about him lol. I Love Him!! He is my buddy, he comes and looks at me whenever I'm at my desk.  I am slowing learning all his little habits, if thats even possible for a fish.
Well I feel a good bit better now. Guess thats good lol.
RA I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!