Well, let's just say that it has been interesting so far. I have had my ups and downs but mostly downs. It's been hard, esp. without him here. You don't realize how much having someone a few minutes away and having them 3 hours away can make a difference. And a big one at that. I usually run to him when I need to but out here, I can't and that is a bit of a problem for me. I will just have to learn how to work with what I have. Like right now, so many things running through my head. I want to eat something, I want to do something(cough cough), I want to excercise, I want to cry, I want to run home, I want to scream, and did I mention I still want to eat more even though I'm full from a few minutes ago? Yes, I am aware of my craziness. I feel like I'm losing it again after all this hard work and I'm so scared of that. The harder I try the worse it gets, I don't know what to do anymore. Maybe I should just give up and go die in a hole lol jkjk. but I kinda do feel like that sometimes.
Why is it so hard for me to do this on my own? I must be completely worthless (which I already knew).
Sissors sound like a good idea right now. bye for now
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