ok, how do I always get things wrong or mess them up?
I can't eat right, I can't act right, I can't do anything right.
I feel like I'm all alone again. No one to talk to or who understands.
yeah, I may "have lots of issues that I need to work out" (thanks Hannah, didn't know it was so obvious). but my question is, how do I "work" them out?

I was almost to the point of tears at the end of the day. Nothing is going right. I can't figure MB out. One day he talks to me and acts like a good friend and the next he barely talks to me. And hangs out with all the "skinny" popular girls. I don't know, I'm probably just jealous, no I am jealous. On top of that I was feeling horrible because I ate the lunch they brought for us. It wasn't part of my plan. Then when we get back I walk by one of MB best girl buddies ,Katlyn, and she is staring at me. I had to walk away to get here to stop. I can't help but to feel like she doesn't like me for some reason.
At this point I wanted to go home and bawl my eyes out. you know what I did instead?I ate, pizza, and a whole lotta m&m's.  So at this point I feel completely useless. I tell myself that I can't sit down or it will all turn into fat. so I figure I'll go for a walk with Lucy, and see if that helps any. No it did not. If anything, I come out of it feeling worse. I made RA feel like crap, when he isn't. Why can't he see its for the best.

The worst part of everything is that I feel like I am losing my best friend. I mean, I've known him since first grade. Now I feel like he is slowly slipping away.