well, Im tired and don't really know what I feel like right now or how to explain it at least. I know that I hate myself, I'm fat, worthless, and ugly. I feel like I need some sort of punishment for being such a pig and being so lazy. I'm just so tired all the time and its so hot. I know all I do is whine whine whine. I feel so bipolar sometimes (and no its not that time of month). I start out fine and as the day progresses I get worse (probably cause I cant stop eating!!) and its not that I eat a lot its just I sit here all day freaking reading and my fat ass doesn't get exercise. I know why don't i go walk or exercise or something, well i say to myself, you have to much to do, its to hot, your exhausted, blah blah blah. see how screwed up I am. It might help if i could remember to take my meds everyday, like that would help, ha!
I just feel like walking out in front of a bus right now. Ah, crap and i just remembered something i was supposed to do for by midnight tonight, crap crap crap, f&%# my life!!!!!
I tried to take pics this afternoon but I couldn't even do that properly, see for yourself.
Rhodes

Ugh!!!!!!!

I want to go home, I miss him soooooooo much!!