Why?

Why do I somehow screw everything up? After a long hard day I was finally doing better after I finally got to see him. He makes everything go away. I don't feel so worthless when I'm with him. But no, my asshole of an ex-bf has to go and be a jerk. He can't stand the fact that someone is better then him. Honestly you would you would really have to try to be worse then him.
And I brought this on myself. If I weren't such a horrible person this wouldn't have happened.
I wish he knew how much I love him (fyi, RA, talking about you now). And honestly, if you asked me to or I had to get married today, I'd marry you. (prob just scared you away even more) I never want to leave you, ever. I love everything about you and your family is awesome (most of the time).
RA the only way your gonna get rid of me is by telling me you dont care about me anymore.
Love you!!