Well, the summer has had its ups and downs, mostly ups. Now I feel a big down coming, I have been fighting it for a couple days but I don't know how much longer I can make it. The worst part is that it makes me eat even more, which doesn't help any at all and makes me feel worse. This morning was one of the worst eating wise, 2 100 calorie packs, 1 cliff bar, and 2 packs of powdered doughnuts :( I am sooooo scared that I am going to go back to the bingeing. I was feeling so good about myself and I was having an amazing summer. Why must this always ruin it?
The summer is going by sooo fast, its almost July aready!! I have a feeling its gonna start getting crazy again, but I don't mind, I'll eat like a normal person then. I feel like my days are numbered, especially with him. I can't even find words to describe how much I care about him and how much he matters to me. Love You RA!! Hopefully I can make the best of the time that I have left in nashville.
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