I am soooooo ready for Christmas break. I am not doing well right now, I feel myself going down right now. I look at myself and all I see is bags under my eyes, fat everywhere, and laziness. These two weeks are critical for classes and I just can't focus right now. I don't want to do anything. Like I sit down to do it and I just can't. I don't know what is wrong and it is so frustrating. I know I can do it I just can't...I don't know how to say it. I just sit and stare at my work, I don't do anything. All I have done today is go to class, read some, sleep, go look at a monument for my next paper (which I should also be working on), eat, and eat again, and eat again, and shower. 
now I'm in one of my moods which means I just sit and think about how fat and worthless I am. great, just great. I have got way to much work to do. after this, I will once again attempt to do work and probably won't get far. I have done about half of the assignment so far. I just hate grammar and writing so much.
ERRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!! I can't get over how much I have eaten and how much of a fatty I am! I looked at old pics last night and now they just keep replaying in my head. 
I just want to scream right now. I'm so upset and mad. my thoughts of how fat I am keep getting in the way of my work. its all I can think about.
oh well